{"topic":{"id":6422,"title":"感觉在读带专","slug":"topic","categoryId":4,"createdAt":"2023-10-11 16:36:10.019643","bumpedAt":"2023-10-13 04:18:11.279759","views":433,"postsCount":18,"highestPostNumber":18,"likeCount":2,"closed":false,"pinned":false,"pinnedGlobally":false,"pinnedAt":null,"pinnedUntil":null,"isBanner":false,"excerpt":"现在有脑子就能上你交这样的中九贬值太厉害了","deletedAt":null,"isAnonymous":false,"category":{"id":4,"name":"谈笑风生","slug":"general","color":"25AAE2"},"author":{"id":1047,"username":"anonymous_coward_old","name":"Anonymous Coward Old","avatarUrl":"/uploads/image/43/32/4332638c11248b8ff07033c11de0759a55205facfbec85e14458245a91991faf.avif"},"tags":[]},"posts":[{"id":13584,"postNumber":1,"raw":"现在有脑子就能上你交这样的中九\r\n贬值太厉害了","cooked":"

现在有脑子就能上你交这样的中九
\n贬值太厉害了

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听烦了

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我觉得我在精神病院，而且也有精神病了

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那你咋来了？说明你就这水平

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感觉见了不下五个虾饺 failure 帖子了 🤣 🤣 🤣

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年月擦身过，暂且问，会更好吗？

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\n R\n Revan — #1 in 随笔/涂鸦不求理解只求不喷\n

我准备将人世的暗影毫不顾忌地往你头上掷去。不得害怕。一定要定睛逼视阴暗物，从中抓取对你有参考价值的东西。—夏目漱石《心》
\n大一新生开学一个月才知道这个论坛，我也是服了自己了
\n看到郝景芳的《北京折叠》最初就是发表在水木清华 bbs 上，想着这里有没有机会提供类似的土壤。然而我是要失望了，粗游一圈，这里就像《骆驼祥子》的大杂院，除了自由与希望，什么都有。应该这里是你交顶尖学生止步之所？我们这个国家近年来愈来愈多的压抑和悲观，在这里俯视皆是。人文精神淡泊的同学们鱼贯进入罐头工厂的模版，被现实、体制压成一个又一个，香喷喷的，C9 罐头。
\n你交面试时，对面的教授问我：“你最大的挫折？”我答：“出现在你面前。”
\n人生只有一次，而我在最关键的十字路口遭遇滑铁卢。身边的高中同学成群结队飞去清北复交，他们是有福的，脸上燃放着生的喜悦，生命的火焰。人生中最美好的一段微笑着，向他们敞开胸怀。而我侧身立在至深的黑暗中，仿佛也歃享了强者的幸福。
\n大多数人一生不过只是在偷享别人的幸福。
\n我曾坚信自己一定可以是 SJTUer，直到高考放榜。
\n我是个懦夫，放榜时，我在劝说下放弃了复读。报志愿时，我在“我爱国，国不爱我”的作祟下放弃了北航，在数学无前途的作祟下放弃了南开。
\n于是最后我将自己带到了这里，这个伟大的废墟，西安。
\n世界线变动。
\n如果用我最喜欢的日漫之一 Steins Gate 中的台词说，我现在的生活，无疑是我先前设想中“最糟最烂的世界线”。现在，我只能站在这里，铁灰的天幕下，独自揣测那另一侧，我本可以抵达的世界线，究竟是什么模样。
\n向那铁幕另一侧，我永远无法到达的真实，无望的伸出手。
\n我怯懦的选择，使我只能像《四世同堂》中所说的那样，“像被奸污的寡妇似的苟活”
\n周作人，当了汉奸的鲁迅之弟，有一本散文集《自己的园地》，他的内心也是如此，不管外界风浪如何，总有一方安静的自留地供他退守。
\n而鲁迅，则会毫不犹豫地将这最后园地砸的稀烂。
\n这是周氏兄弟耐人寻味的差异。周作人待人待己总留三分，活的轻松。鲁迅苛己苛人不留余地，早早逝世。其母在儿子去世时说：“这是被气死的。”周作人何时发过脾气？所以长寿。
\n然而，在痛苦与虚无之间，我选择痛苦。
\n我永远不会原谅自己，即便日后功成名就，我也会牢记着这份失望、耻辱、痛苦，插着这三面小旗躺入坟墓。
\n一件事情开错了头，它可能会变好，但永远不会变对。
\n我在内心深处并不喜欢数学与物理，在那里我看不见灵魂的寄托。很早以前我就从纯纯的理科生毕业了，我不爱数理，却每天废寝忘食地学习它们。我热爱我们的国家，却避开为国效力的捷径。我来到这里，归根到底是贪图未来摆烂的大饼。
\n早看过很多大学中学化的报道，但只能说现实比想象更魔幻。在西交，我看见很多人在各向的道路上大放异彩，也有很多人依然在单向度的评价道路上匍匐前进，浑浑噩噩，让我想到毛姆对《庄子》中一句的翻译：
\n他们的行动全都像快马奔驰，没有什么力量能使他们止步，这不是很可悲吗！他们终身承受役使却看不到自己的成功，一辈子困顿疲劳却不知道自己的归宿，这能不悲哀吗？
\n而我的归宿，又在何处？

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年月擦身过，暂且问，会更好吗？

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人不应该靠别人来体现自己的价值

上中九的人多了中九就不值钱了就是一种典型的靠别人来体现自己的价值的观念。加州伯克利的本科生估计数量比西交多得多

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但是加州伯克利本科教育在湾区比 Caltech/Stanford 要差挺多的，他们本科生会少很多也强很多。

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订正 Caltech 在 LA

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我意思是如果数人头决定贬值的话加州伯克利就不如西交了

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反正据我观察，你交基本上学生都挺平庸的，基本符合正态分布，outlier 很少。这主要是因为人都是高考失败才来的，真正牛逼人不会来你交。

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经典咏流传

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我反倒觉得身边高手好多，每个都比我强十倍；当然普通学生也有。也许是我认为的高手在你看来还和真正的高手有距离吧；或者单纯是没遇到。

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你身边的高手有没有录了 MIT EECS PhD 的

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中九？上九！

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以能不能录取 MIT PhD 来论高手会不会太狭隘了

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这只是在同学想读 PhD 的情况下，而且方向 MIT 比较好的情况下。其他情况可以参考有没有在对应方向上做到相应的水平。其实没有。

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想找的话学长姐资源还是很丰富的哈，就是找很特定的情况确实不好找呢，

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