{"topic":{"id":6316,"title":"随笔/涂鸦不求理解只求不喷","slug":"topic","categoryId":4,"createdAt":"2023-10-08 10:27:48.931923","bumpedAt":"2024-09-10 14:44:53.65374","views":933,"postsCount":45,"highestPostNumber":48,"likeCount":42,"closed":false,"pinned":false,"pinnedGlobally":false,"pinnedAt":null,"pinnedUntil":null,"isBanner":false,"excerpt":"我准备将人世的暗影毫不顾忌地往你头上掷去。不得害怕。一定要定睛逼视阴暗物，从中抓取对你有参考价值的东西。—夏目漱石《心》大一新生开学一个月才知道这个论坛，我也是服了自己了看到郝景芳的《北京折叠》最初就是发表在水木清华 bbs 上，想着这里有没有机会提供类似的土壤。然而我是要失望了，粗游一圈，这里就像《骆驼祥子》的大杂院，除了自由与希望，什么都有。应该这里是你交顶尖学生止步之所？我们这个国家近年来愈来愈多的压抑和悲观，在这里俯视皆是。…","deletedAt":null,"isAnonymous":false,"category":{"id":4,"name":"谈笑风生","slug":"general","color":"25AAE2"},"author":{"id":1590,"username":"Revan","name":" ","avatarUrl":null},"tags":[]},"posts":[{"id":13048,"postNumber":1,"raw":"我准备将人世的暗影毫不顾忌地往你头上掷去。不得害怕。一定要定睛逼视阴暗物，从中抓取对你有参考价值的东西。—夏目漱石《心》\n大一新生开学一个月才知道这个论坛，我也是服了自己了\n看到郝景芳的《北京折叠》最初就是发表在水木清华 bbs 上，想着这里有没有机会提供类似的土壤。然而我是要失望了，粗游一圈，这里就像《骆驼祥子》的大杂院，除了自由与希望，什么都有。应该这里是你交顶尖学生止步之所？我们这个国家近年来愈来愈多的压抑和悲观，在这里俯视皆是。人文精神淡泊的同学们鱼贯进入罐头工厂的模版，被现实、体制压成一个又一个，香喷喷的，C9 罐头。\n你交面试时，对面的教授问我：“你最大的挫折？”我答：“出现在你面前。”\n人生只有一次，而我在最关键的十字路口遭遇滑铁卢。身边的高中同学成群结队飞去清北复交，他们是有福的，脸上燃放着生的喜悦，生命的火焰。人生中最美好的一段微笑着，向他们敞开胸怀。而我侧身立在至深的黑暗中，仿佛也歃享了强者的幸福。\n大多数人一生不过只是在偷享别人的幸福。\n我曾坚信自己一定可以是 SJTUer，直到高考放榜。\n我是个懦夫，放榜时，我在劝说下放弃了复读。报志愿时，我在“我爱国，国不爱我”的作祟下放弃了北航，在数学无前途的作祟下放弃了南开。\n于是最后我将自己带到了这里，这个伟大的废墟，西安。\n世界线变动。\n如果用我最喜欢的日漫之一 Steins Gate 中的台词说，我现在的生活，无疑是我先前设想中“最糟最烂的世界线”。现在，我只能站在这里，铁灰的天幕下，独自揣测那另一侧，我本可以抵达的世界线，究竟是什么模样。\n向那铁幕另一侧，我永远无法到达的真实，无望的伸出手。\n我怯懦的选择，使我只能像《四世同堂》中所说的那样，“像被奸污的寡妇似的苟活”\n周作人，当了汉奸的鲁迅之弟，有一本散文集《自己的园地》，他的内心也是如此，不管外界风浪如何，总有一方安静的自留地供他退守。\n而鲁迅，则会毫不犹豫地将这最后园地砸的稀烂。\n这是周氏兄弟耐人寻味的差异。周作人待人待己总留三分，活的轻松。鲁迅苛己苛人不留余地，早早逝世。其母在儿子去世时说：“这是被气死的。”周作人何时发过脾气？所以长寿。\n然而，在痛苦与虚无之间，我选择痛苦。\n我永远不会原谅自己，即便日后功成名就，我也会牢记着这份失望、耻辱、痛苦，插着这三面小旗躺入坟墓。\n一件事情开错了头，它可能会变好，但永远不会变对。\n我在内心深处并不喜欢数学与物理，在那里我看不见灵魂的寄托。很早以前我就从纯纯的理科生毕业了，我不爱数理，却每天废寝忘食地学习它们。我热爱我们的国家，却避开为国效力的捷径。我来到这里，归根到底是贪图未来摆烂的大饼。\n早看过很多大学中学化的报道，但只能说现实比想象更魔幻。在西交，我看见很多人在各向的道路上大放异彩，也有很多人依然在单向度的评价道路上匍匐前进，浑浑噩噩，让我想到毛姆对《庄子》中一句的翻译：\n他们的行动全都像快马奔驰，没有什么力量能使他们止步，这不是很可悲吗！他们终身承受役使却看不到自己的成功，一辈子困顿疲劳却不知道自己的归宿，这能不悲哀吗？\n而我的归宿，又在何处？","cooked":"

我准备将人世的暗影毫不顾忌地往你头上掷去。不得害怕。一定要定睛逼视阴暗物，从中抓取对你有参考价值的东西。—夏目漱石《心》
\n大一新生开学一个月才知道这个论坛，我也是服了自己了
\n看到郝景芳的《北京折叠》最初就是发表在水木清华 bbs 上，想着这里有没有机会提供类似的土壤。然而我是要失望了，粗游一圈，这里就像《骆驼祥子》的大杂院，除了自由与希望，什么都有。应该这里是你交顶尖学生止步之所？我们这个国家近年来愈来愈多的压抑和悲观，在这里俯视皆是。人文精神淡泊的同学们鱼贯进入罐头工厂的模版，被现实、体制压成一个又一个，香喷喷的，C9 罐头。
\n你交面试时，对面的教授问我：“你最大的挫折？”我答：“出现在你面前。”
\n人生只有一次，而我在最关键的十字路口遭遇滑铁卢。身边的高中同学成群结队飞去清北复交，他们是有福的，脸上燃放着生的喜悦，生命的火焰。人生中最美好的一段微笑着，向他们敞开胸怀。而我侧身立在至深的黑暗中，仿佛也歃享了强者的幸福。
\n大多数人一生不过只是在偷享别人的幸福。
\n我曾坚信自己一定可以是 SJTUer，直到高考放榜。
\n我是个懦夫，放榜时，我在劝说下放弃了复读。报志愿时，我在“我爱国，国不爱我”的作祟下放弃了北航，在数学无前途的作祟下放弃了南开。
\n于是最后我将自己带到了这里，这个伟大的废墟，西安。
\n世界线变动。
\n如果用我最喜欢的日漫之一 Steins Gate 中的台词说，我现在的生活，无疑是我先前设想中“最糟最烂的世界线”。现在，我只能站在这里，铁灰的天幕下，独自揣测那另一侧，我本可以抵达的世界线，究竟是什么模样。
\n向那铁幕另一侧，我永远无法到达的真实，无望的伸出手。
\n我怯懦的选择，使我只能像《四世同堂》中所说的那样，“像被奸污的寡妇似的苟活”
\n周作人，当了汉奸的鲁迅之弟，有一本散文集《自己的园地》，他的内心也是如此，不管外界风浪如何，总有一方安静的自留地供他退守。
\n而鲁迅，则会毫不犹豫地将这最后园地砸的稀烂。
\n这是周氏兄弟耐人寻味的差异。周作人待人待己总留三分，活的轻松。鲁迅苛己苛人不留余地，早早逝世。其母在儿子去世时说：“这是被气死的。”周作人何时发过脾气？所以长寿。
\n然而，在痛苦与虚无之间，我选择痛苦。
\n我永远不会原谅自己，即便日后功成名就，我也会牢记着这份失望、耻辱、痛苦，插着这三面小旗躺入坟墓。
\n一件事情开错了头，它可能会变好，但永远不会变对。
\n我在内心深处并不喜欢数学与物理，在那里我看不见灵魂的寄托。很早以前我就从纯纯的理科生毕业了，我不爱数理，却每天废寝忘食地学习它们。我热爱我们的国家，却避开为国效力的捷径。我来到这里，归根到底是贪图未来摆烂的大饼。
\n早看过很多大学中学化的报道，但只能说现实比想象更魔幻。在西交，我看见很多人在各向的道路上大放异彩，也有很多人依然在单向度的评价道路上匍匐前进，浑浑噩噩，让我想到毛姆对《庄子》中一句的翻译：
\n他们的行动全都像快马奔驰，没有什么力量能使他们止步，这不是很可悲吗！他们终身承受役使却看不到自己的成功，一辈子困顿疲劳却不知道自己的归宿，这能不悲哀吗？
\n而我的归宿，又在何处？

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感觉像周作人说的“吐出了一个痞块”

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其实你如果实在接受不了下交，可以复读的，找个专业复读学校或者你学籍所在地的重点高中复读。我身边有东南大四退学复读去中科大的，也有下交大二退学去北航的，国防科大 11 月退学去清华的，复读现在还来得及，复读后悔一年，跟你自己写的一样，不复读后悔一辈子

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省流：痛王发病

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去清华北大也不是想你所言那么光鲜亮丽啊，大学生活怎么样纯看自己，无非是清北资源更丰富，牛人更多罢了，可能你对这些“更高的学历”还存在幻想。西交虽然给不了你清北的逼格，但还不至于说是一无是处，一辈子的污点，高考（还是别的什么）是你自己考的，路在自己脚下。

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写得很有文采，引经据典，读过很多书。
\n中国大学都差不多的，根本没必要复读，上交、下交、中交没有质的区别，高中比大学更痛苦。

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高中痛苦因人而异吧，我一个同学去年在北大 5+3，看不起，赶着 11 月高考报名前退学，复读，据我全天候的观察（同宿舍），他基本是今年 3 月开始认真复习的！然后今年去了北大数院还是什么（他省前 50），复读的难度显然远远低于他在北大卷一年换专业的难度，痛苦也是，他基本上彻头彻尾的玩，而且玩的不错

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心有不甘恰恰是你力量的来源，而且大学之大，道路之宽广，凭你的才华与努力，完全可以把下交作为踏板一样的存在，不断接近你的目标！共勉，祝好！

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我不复读就是觉得真没有必要再浪费自己的时间，受着归一化培养体系的摧残，况且也许我也没有能够一个人再沉静一年的性格，骨子里还是一个跳脱渴望自由的人

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快转学 mit 啊
\n怎么那么多人转学 mit 啊

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MIT 宿舍快满了，需要住南区了

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我看你是做题做得入心入脑入魂了。失败的不够多，要狠狠地失败，你才能认清现实。高考不是人生最关键的十字路口——当你以为你的人生已经跌落谷底的时候，实际上人生可以比你想象的要再差许多。最终，你不得不接受现实，其实你的人生没有完，你不是天选之子，你只是个可怜的普通人罢了。
\n做题家虽然痛恨培养出他们的做题系统，他们做出的行为却精确地吻合着做题系统对他们的塑造。这可以说是非常讽刺了。

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哎，高中生思维害死人（虽然我也没有完全摆脱

\n","createdAt":"2023-10-08 13:11:32.844362","updatedAt":"2024-03-30 03:24:29.904426","replyToPostNumber":14,"replyCount":0,"likeCount":1,"wordCount":21,"liked":false,"bookmarked":false,"polls":[],"reactions":[{"reaction":"❤️","count":1,"users":[{"id":1837,"username":"Whatsup","name":"你是？"}],"hasReacted":false}],"wiki":false,"version":1,"publicVersion":1,"deletedAt":null,"isAnonymous":false,"user":{"id":1047,"username":"anonymous_coward_old","name":"Anonymous Coward Old","avatarUrl":"/uploads/image/43/32/4332638c11248b8ff07033c11de0759a55205facfbec85e14458245a91991faf.avif","admin":false,"moderator":false,"signatureRaw":null,"signatureCooked":null}},{"id":13100,"postNumber":16,"raw":"可能有些冒犯，但是我想说的是，复读不一定是好事。\n且不说是否会因为复读而影响心态，就算是复读之后成功去了清北，但是你的同学大部分是第一次就直接考上的清北的，而且其中不乏各科竞赛的保送生。虽说努力能弥补一部分天赋的差距，但是天赋点比平均水平落后真的会受到大佬们降维打击，拼命努力但是依旧无济于事的感觉可能不会太好。\n你如果心有不甘，那就在交大好好学习证明自己的实力，然后以一个亮眼的成绩保送或者申米国 offer，清北又如何，如果你好好学习，四年之后不一定比他们差，中上游 985 学校的专业前几都是有含金量的。","cooked":"

可能有些冒犯，但是我想说的是，复读不一定是好事。
\n且不说是否会因为复读而影响心态，就算是复读之后成功去了清北，但是你的同学大部分是第一次就直接考上的清北的，而且其中不乏各科竞赛的保送生。虽说努力能弥补一部分天赋的差距，但是天赋点比平均水平落后真的会受到大佬们降维打击，拼命努力但是依旧无济于事的感觉可能不会太好。
\n你如果心有不甘，那就在交大好好学习证明自己的实力，然后以一个亮眼的成绩保送或者申米国 offer，清北又如何，如果你好好学习，四年之后不一定比他们差，中上游 985 学校的专业前几都是有含金量的。

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年月擦身过，暂且问，会更好吗？

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知乎问题被上交退学是种什么体验

每次有学历自卑的时候就看看这里面的回答。

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同意心有不甘是力量的来源。到了我交也会发现，强中自有强中手，能在我交当 top 的也不是一般人

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哈哈最后还是被狠狠地关怀了
\n其实上学之后心态平和多了，约了大一暑假和上交的朋友去上海转转，看看上交和鲁迅故居
\n记得很久以前看的，说屈原重开是自私和怯懦，反而像狂人这样，发完疯还好好的去在铁屋中做官作实事才是真的韧性、勇气和中国脊梁
\n“这世界如此美丽，值得我们为它奋斗，我只同意后半句。”—海暗威
\n某虽不敏，请事斯语焉

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屈原就是一鼠人，楚国不行都不晓得润，比如去秦国帮助秦王灭六国。
\n你对他不满意就去建设他，楚王不让你建设，润去秦国建设楚国。

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润学 show show way

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屈原是楚国仅次于楚王的贵族，你想什么呢

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