{"topic":{"id":6221,"title":"读研读郁闷了","slug":"topic","categoryId":4,"createdAt":"2023-10-05 15:42:09.33527","bumpedAt":"2023-10-10 02:40:20.135031","views":519,"postsCount":15,"highestPostNumber":15,"likeCount":9,"closed":false,"pinned":false,"pinnedGlobally":false,"pinnedAt":null,"pinnedUntil":null,"isBanner":false,"excerpt":"看到两位兄弟表白失败的帖子，比我强很多了，觉得自己幼稚到不如高中生，想了想最近的节日是万圣节准备送礼物好好道歉，毕竟是很长时间的朋友了。刚好聊到怪奇物语和小小梦魇，准备买设定集和手办，应该很符合这个节日吧哈哈哈熬夜越来越上瘾，这一个月基本没在一点前睡过，没有人会来找。但是身体是真越来越虚弱了，明明还坚持一周跑两次步，短短一个月先是半夜肠胃炎整到脱水，放假一回来就感冒一周没好，昨晚还发烧了。我去，之前做手术时候心电图，医生问我是不是经常…","deletedAt":null,"isAnonymous":false,"category":{"id":4,"name":"谈笑风生","slug":"general","color":"25AAE2"},"author":{"id":339,"username":"Urdak","name":"Urdak","avatarUrl":"/uploads/image/c5/e0/c5e04698493e4cde24fcf729a787b3561db17ef34e1e7a10fa2c2af4314ef6f8.avif"},"tags":[]},"posts":[{"id":12672,"postNumber":1,"raw":"看到两位兄弟表白失败的帖子，比我强很多了，觉得自己幼稚到不如高中生，想了想最近的节日是万圣节准备送礼物好好道歉，毕竟是很长时间的朋友了。刚好聊到怪奇物语和小小梦魇，准备买设定集和手办，应该很符合这个节日吧哈哈哈\n[grid mode=\"tile\"]\n![1203874900|375x500, 50%](/uploads/image/85/3d/853d939f8c42fa4c89dea00d173283ea77af6fbe1fa367559eb25e9334811696.avif)![tb_image_share_1696524584070|500x500, 50%](/uploads/image/0e/0f/0e0f3836fe35b08d2d9e7eba5e19eeb125317e29fd2e70f740ed8d49790d1a3b.avif)\n[/grid]\n\n熬夜越来越上瘾，这一个月基本没在一点前睡过，没有人会来找。但是身体是真越来越虚弱了，明明还坚持一周跑两次步，短短一个月先是半夜肠胃炎整到脱水，放假一回来就感冒一周没好，昨晚还发烧了。我去，之前做手术时候心电图，医生问我是不是经常跑步心率只有 60 不到，现在怎么都 90 了\n![Screenshot_2023-10-06-09-40-16-953_com.gotokeep.keep-edit|397x500, 50%](/uploads/image/a6/b4/a6b4132b7a1833e1afc61a009b1c86b8db7c67a9c5fb43cb91994296d3bd728a.avif)\n\n不想回学校，39 站绷不住啦\n![IMG_20231006_152152|540x383, 50%](/uploads/image/ec/ec/ecec0756ffa330b796d16933938cc79daa7bc30730521e25244b54ee18c29bab.avif)\n\n莫名喜欢给人准备礼物的感觉，思考对方喜欢什么再去搜相关的东西，买完期待收到反馈\n![1696605081642|409x500, 75%](/uploads/image/08/c2/08c282400465a5e2e5ce644535fbfb033cd331cd10ccf5acd58e63056bae244f.avif)\n\n--------------------------------------------\n方向没啥感觉，老师催博士，博士催硕士，一个月了就师兄布置了三回调研，前两次交的甚至都没有反馈。不过这次的要写正式一点的报告，文献读得一塌糊涂没上手什么设备没看过什么代码，总之就是一片黑暗。家里有人博士毕业居然还想劝我读博，培养上一个博士还没见识够吗。\n\n求知欲远不如大一，那时候 C/matlab 写不出来多少还会自己想，可能是目标非常明确吧，所以后三年又开始迷茫摆烂。感觉自己一直是高三那种需要一个明确的目标和非常可行的日常规划，才能有执行力去抵抗无意义感，没错后三年只有考研时候又找到那种感觉\n\n毕业时候想换手机但想着又没挣钱，加上手机现在都这么贵不想问家里要钱就没换，结果前几天直接掉水里暴毙，阴差阳错还是换了，那点可怜的奖学金学费还没抵多少就没了大半\n\n前几天陪我妈去医院，身为老二压力很大啊，父母都是退休年龄的人了我还没上完学（所以打死都不会读博）。现在像我这种情况的家庭应该很多了，两个孩子相差十岁这样，不知道他们以后会怎样。这手术室自己以前还被推进去过，垃圾手术花了 8k 没治好又恢复原状了。不过全麻的感觉真的很神奇，上了手术台说了几句话就没意识了，醒来嘴里插着呼吸机的管子\n[grid mode=\"tile\"]\n![IMG_202310|666x500, 50%](/uploads/image/5c/29/5c29ec108dfe149e7d18c1fc7e6f38c69044f8044e2ecee3472d4a64fc5970ee.avif)![1696560828750|666x500, 50%](/uploads/image/fc/55/fc559bef67ad3d6620ab015a9ee52afe23aa2d28d17e3699955868d61fc435d6.avif)\n[/grid]\n\n\n现在是电影也不怎么看了，游戏也不打了无欲望生活\n不过前几天看了一部反恐怖片《双宝斗恶魔》，人还是要当面交流哈哈哈不然到处是误会\n![mmexport1696351017534|690x293, 50%](/uploads/image/3a/1e/3a1e5acc205d00d322f811175de17a531f40c1a85670dea78f1c080a706598f2.avif)","cooked":"

看到两位兄弟表白失败的帖子，比我强很多了，觉得自己幼稚到不如高中生，想了想最近的节日是万圣节准备送礼物好好道歉，毕竟是很长时间的朋友了。刚好聊到怪奇物语和小小梦魇，准备买设定集和手办，应该很符合这个节日吧哈哈哈

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熬夜越来越上瘾，这一个月基本没在一点前睡过，没有人会来找。但是身体是真越来越虚弱了，明明还坚持一周跑两次步，短短一个月先是半夜肠胃炎整到脱水，放假一回来就感冒一周没好，昨晚还发烧了。我去，之前做手术时候心电图，医生问我是不是经常跑步心率只有 60 不到，现在怎么都 90 了
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不想回学校，39 站绷不住啦
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莫名喜欢给人准备礼物的感觉，思考对方喜欢什么再去搜相关的东西，买完期待收到反馈
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方向没啥感觉，老师催博士，博士催硕士，一个月了就师兄布置了三回调研，前两次交的甚至都没有反馈。不过这次的要写正式一点的报告，文献读得一塌糊涂没上手什么设备没看过什么代码，总之就是一片黑暗。家里有人博士毕业居然还想劝我读博，培养上一个博士还没见识够吗。

求知欲远不如大一，那时候 C/matlab 写不出来多少还会自己想，可能是目标非常明确吧，所以后三年又开始迷茫摆烂。感觉自己一直是高三那种需要一个明确的目标和非常可行的日常规划，才能有执行力去抵抗无意义感，没错后三年只有考研时候又找到那种感觉

毕业时候想换手机但想着又没挣钱，加上手机现在都这么贵不想问家里要钱就没换，结果前几天直接掉水里暴毙，阴差阳错还是换了，那点可怜的奖学金学费还没抵多少就没了大半

前几天陪我妈去医院，身为老二压力很大啊，父母都是退休年龄的人了我还没上完学（所以打死都不会读博）。现在像我这种情况的家庭应该很多了，两个孩子相差十岁这样，不知道他们以后会怎样。这手术室自己以前还被推进去过，垃圾手术花了 8k 没治好又恢复原状了。不过全麻的感觉真的很神奇，上了手术台说了几句话就没意识了，醒来嘴里插着呼吸机的管子

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现在是电影也不怎么看了，游戏也不打了无欲望生活
\n不过前几天看了一部反恐怖片《双宝斗恶魔》，人还是要当面交流哈哈哈不然到处是误会
\n $\"mmexport1696351017534\"$

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在你交读研就是在坐牢，尤其是创新港

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一个月就去兴庆办事儿出去了一次，还在南区究极坐牢，放假提前就润回家了

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发现问题就要思考怎么样才能改变现状！应该多培养找工需要的能力，多做项目实习提升简历，多社交了解有啥找工渠道认识不同公司的人内推，可能有朝一日才能找到工

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感谢老哥，后面确实要好好规划了 🥲

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有同感，大学的时候还有点激情。大四进组的时候已经动了**的念头了，好在一直得过且过到现在找工作，还有大半年就可以走了，我真是伤心的都要哭出来了 🕶️

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不能再同意了

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老哥，我最近睡眠和身体情况跟你差不多，不到 3 点睡不着

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我昨晚吃了退烧药早上起来满身汗，太虚弱了😷

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烧晕了，第一次新冠也也没烧这么长时间

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最好去医院看看吧

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明天不退去看吧，感觉就是又阳了，白天不烧晚上烧

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查个血象看看是不是细菌感染要吃抗生素，或者做个抗原检测看看是不是 COVID

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感谢老哥

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发烧心率就是会变快这点不用焦虑
\n好好吃饭好好睡觉没有毕不了业的硕士
\n面对 push 咱们直接一个已读不回给自己放一个月假
\n不管是心理还是生理自己的身体还是最重要的

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